Never Again

Mason and I went to the grocery store Friday. As usual I was using my coupons and ads to get the best deals. I bought 50 items and only had 2 that I had to pay full price for. I was so proud. When I got in the line to check out the checker was great. I always request that they go slow so that I can check each item as they scan it to make sure that the price comes up correctly and that they scan the correct amount. I admit that this is quite a process, but I like that I don't have to bring everything back in after I check the receipt in the car. So, while I was there a jerk was behind me in line. I could tell that he was getting irrated and I said that I was about done and I was sorry that it was taking so long. He made the comment that I was reading his mind. I started to get embarrassed, sweat a little, and even turned red. I apologized and started to get my things together as quick as I could. All the while he was making comments and huffing sounds. I left the store and felt like crap, I even felt a little weepy.

In the car I made a decision. I will NEVER feel bad, apologize, or be embarrassed about something that I am doing for my family again. In fact, if this happens again, I pity the fool that pulls this behavior behind me in line. But truthfully, besides me being a wimp, it brings up the fact that I don't want this to be a lesson that my kids learn. I don't want them to be easily bullied. I want him to have a sense of accomplishment and not let others sway their feelings. I want them to believe in what they are doing, and believe that it has purpose and anything that takes time should. I want them to be able to handle themselves with poise and dignity when they are confronted with this sort of situation. So, next time I will handle myself significantly better than I did on this day.